There are days it is easy to forget
that I have two children from China.
I realize that may sound weird,
they are just my kids.
We are just a family.
So often it is easy
to just be wrapped up in our busy lives
and forget the reality that is out there;
to forget the tragedy my children came from.
There are days I just don’t want to have to wake up,
then turn over in my off-brand memory foam mattress
and see these pictures and think about what they represent.
I don’t want to think about my son
having just been found in a grass field in the country side.
I don’t want to think about those blankets,
probably belonging to his birth family,
and how chilly it must have been out.
Nor do I want to think about my daughter,
being found in a box by her foster mom
as she was on her way to market,
and all that she went through without me.
I just want to wake up,
live my life,
and shelter myself from that reality.
But that reality is now a part of my life.
We get busy thinking/worrying about
all the things that concern us in our everyday.
We get comfy in our off-brand, memory foam mattresses.
We get distracted by
things we can’t have,
things we can have,
the millions of things we need to do,
the fact that there is never enough food in the house…
(Well, maybe that’s just me.)
and we forget that there are people truly hurting.
People close at home and people on the other side of the world.
And I am not about to be saying
that any of those things can’t be,
All of them have their proper place.
And some truly need to be thought about
However, if we let that become our focus,
if we let those things distract us from
THE BIGGER PICTURE,
I believe we have missed it.
I don’t believe these realities
are something we should grovel in everyday.
No, Jesus wanted our joy to be full.
And I don’t want to think of my children as tragic
and dwell on their past.
Because their unhappy beginning
doesn’t determine who they are,
It’s who they choose to be;
the rest of their story that matters.
And before you start thinking I’m awesome for writing that,
I stole it from the goat on Kung Fu Panda 2.
Awesome movie. You should watch it.
I have it in Mandarin, if you want to borrow it.
But, as our busy lives go by,
even though it may be uncomfortable,
I think we should take the time to gain perspective.
I think we should back up everyday
and make ourselves consider
THE BIGGER PICTURE.
Even though sometimes it would be awesome
if life could just be easy,
with no pain or hardships.
I am thankful that I have this reminder everyday that it is not.
A gentle nudge to push me from my selfishness,
and to remember to put others before myself;
that this life is not about me
and my comfy mattress.
But, to remember there are people all over the world
that need God’s love,
that need to hear about what Jesus did for them.
Here I am, Lord.