during this entire adoption process
I struggled with the idea that
this was all my plan,
I often thought…
“What if we get him home and this whole thing falls apart?”
“What if my motivation is wrong?”
“What if I am blowing up God’s plan because of my wants and desires?”
I even thought these things
up until the night before Gotcha Day.
And what if…
what the Holy Spirit kept whispering to me
the. whole. time.
was EXACTLY right!
I am your Good Shepherd.
And I never lead my sheep where they shouldn’t be.
And I have equipped you with MY grace,
DO NOT BE AFRAID!
I KNOW He knows what He is doing.
And I laugh now.
I laugh at all those days and nights
I struggled with whether this was right or not.
Because this is God we are talking about.
And He knows the end
from the beginning.
And that doesn’t just mean,
(affect high-pitched, cheery voice)
“Oh, my life is so easy now!!
And my children are so perfect!!!”
Come sit for a day?!?!
That is ABSOLUTELY untrue.
But what it does mean is this, when you are called,
you are equipped.
And if anybody’s power/grace/anointing