Hashtag. Real Talk.

I woke up today thinking “I feel like I am finally getting this 6 kids-thing under control.”

I actually got up and made something extra special for breakfast. Which has NOT been the norm on a school day when Shaun isn’t home.

Then, by about 11am reality settled back in and I remembered that I still have a lot of learning to do. Just when you think you have life by the reigns another wave crashes in.

It’s a good reminder to me how absolutely reliant I am on God’s grace, and how important it is for me to abide in Him everyday. It is His strength and His wisdom alone that can guide me as I learn how to navigate all the changes we have made and try to help those I am SUPPOSED to be leading-when I myself feel so inept.

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It’s so funny because this is the first time I have felt like blogging since we got home, and then my day turned out horrible. I think that’s hilarious!

I started my day thinking, “I might just blog today about me finally feeling like making a creative breakfast after 3.5 months home. Maybe I’m finally back!”

To three hours later thinking, “God! When am I ever going to get my junk together!!”

I am laughing now because

my husband is home and the kids are outside playing.

I realize that life will always be an adventure-full of ups and downs, challenges and rough days. And the day things are just going completely peaceful and completely smooth and easy I will be in heaven.

(or maybe my kids will just be gone from the house.)

(no, my mom says “then there will be grandchildren.”)

But honestly, I would so much rather live a life full of adventure than a dull one.

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So, we pick up our mommy heads and wipe off our mommy tears. We forgive ourselves and ask eeeeevverrrryoone else to forgive us and we soldier on. Drinking deep of the grace of God.

And I am preaching to myself obvs., but take some encouragement today if you need it. You’re not alone.

Each day, I will say, that things are getting better and better. A little boy is learning English very quickly and stealing everyone’s hearts.

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Other kids are starting to love each other more and not be jealous.

Certain churens are beginning to gain confidence and realize that they are sons not visitors.

Certain mommas are learning to walk away and cool down before handling situations… and just trying to enjoy life more.

And maybe the laundry got done this week and we only ate pizza once…but the week is not over yet. Don’t hold your breath.

Soldiering on,

Anna

So after we have been home a few days…

things are going pretty well.

He was TERRIFIED of June (our dog) when we first came home,
but thankfully, he has quickly gotten over it.

It took him a little bit to warm up to everyone, but he came around quickly.

When he is unsure of people he won’t look at them.
He just completely ignores you until he feels comfortable.
Which usually means you have to act kinda uninterested in him.
No pressure.
He likes to decide when he is ready to meet you.
It’s a control thing. :)
Which we totally understand.

He has also quickly figured out that he now loves his mama.
There is just something men can’t resist about a woman in an apron. ;)
When I started cooking up food that first day, he decided I was pretty awesome.

I am trying to adjust to life with a toddler again.
Which I totally forgot was exhausting.
But, I feel like I am a better mama with toddlers.
I am much more creative, fun and intentional with my time.

He is also finally starting to relax and sleep better.
We are getting him on a more normal schedule, which makes me feel better.
It’s never good when your little one isn’t getting the sleep they need.

Well, it is hard to find any time to update so I am sure I won’t be posting quite as much in the future days. However, Friday is his first appointment with the surgeon so we definitely appreciate your prayers. I am very excited to see what he will say. Hopefully, I can share some news about that.

Lastly, here are a few pics of our fist days together.
Seeing him with Lily and Judah playing together just absolutely makes my soul soar!
I like to call them my Chinese Trio. :)

I have had some much sweeter moments I could have captured, but I am trying to be in the moment and not always have my phone in my hand. This is all I’ve got so far.

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Thanks to all that have prayed for us, donated money, helped me with my kids (while gone and since we have been home), brought meals, said kind words, been patient with us, stocked my pantry.

I have some of the best family, friends, and church family.
So thankful to God for the people that he has placed in our life.

Feeling so blessed,
Anna